I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokbokki

PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I assist you?ME: I'm not sure, maybe I'm—what's the term—depressed? Do I need to elaborate on that?Baek Sehee is a promising young social media director at a publishing house when she decides to start seeing a psychiatrist to address her possible depression. She often feels a lingering sense of sadness, anxiety, and relentless self-doubt, coupled with a critical view of others. Despite these feelings, she manages to mask her emotions effectively at work and with friends, presenting an image of calm and poise that her lifestyle demands. This facade, however, is draining and prevents her from establishing deep connections. Surely, this isn’t how life should be.Yet, despite feeling despondent, Baek can always muster a craving for tteokbokki, a spicy rice cake street food she loves. Is this just a facet of existence?Through recording her conversations with her psychiatrist over twelve weeks, Baek starts to unravel the patterns of feedback, impulsive reactions, and destructive habits that trap her in a cycle of self-harm. Both a memoir and a self-help guide, "I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki" is a book to keep nearby during difficult times.